Feb 28, 2010

Sunday Praise and Prayers [Edition 23]

Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever.
Psalms 118:29 (NIV)

- My sister Jessie [Got a job up north on the slopes]
- My niece Julia [Continuing to gain weight. She's up to 8lbs. 2lbs in a week!!]
- Successful baby shower at work. We got enough money to get Darcy a really nice crib for the baby!

- All the families affected by the earthquake in Chile. All of these devastating earthquakes are beginning to scare me. Especially living on a fault line here in Alaska. I keep thinking of the 9.4 earthquake in the 60s here in Alaska. I don't wanna be around for that!!
- Darcy is about to give birth any day now. Her last day of work will be on the 4th of March. I hope everything goes good for the delivery.
- My brother Joe. He needs some direction in his life. He's slowly destroying everything in his life. I suspect he's getting into drugs...AGAIN. I pray he gets his butt together for him and his son.
- My marriage. I'm getting so frustrated and been praying for some guideness.

On a side note, I can't believe today is the last day of February!!
Tomorrow is March and it doest feel like it.
Probably has to do something with the snow storm we got a couple of days ago.
I'm so ready for the snow to melt and not come back for awhile!!

Hope everyone had a great weekend and a blessed week!

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Feb 27, 2010

I really hate a dirty truck!

Yes I do.
It's one of my pet peeves.

I hate this time of year in Alaska.
The snow melts and makes it all slush, then it snows and gets really cold.
You have to wash your car every other day so it's useless.
I can't wait until Spring!!!

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Feb 26, 2010

It's that time of the week!!!!

I am officially off until Monday!
I love working 4 days a week!

I'm attending a baby shower later today for a co-worker. We are throwing a huge shower for her at the hospital.
A bunch of us throughout the hospital pitched in and got her an awesome crib with a changing table.
Can't wait to see what everyone got her.
Then it's off to packing up things with Justin and Carrie.

So what are you doing this weekend?
Any good plans?

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Feb 25, 2010

Elevator Etiquitte

As most of you know, I work in a hospital.
I get called to all areas of the hospital so I'm running around ALL. THE. TIME.
We transport a lot of patients to testing, from recovery to their rooms, ER to rooms if admitted, etc.

It pisses me off the most when people are riding in an elevator farting around when the elevator stops on the floor for me to transport a patient.
They see that I'm pushing a bed with 3 IV poles with a patient that looks critical and they just stare at me and say, "Sorry, no room" then stand there waiting for the doors to close.

That's when a bomb goes off in my head wanting to scream and tell them to get their @$!?@ ?!$&@@& off the elevator so I can rush my patient back to where they need to go.

So if you ever find yourself at the hospital in the same situation, GET OF THE ELEVATOR!
A critical patient trumps you going to the cafeteria. You can wait until the next elevator.

Ok, with that said, another thing that irritates me is this...
When you are waiting for an elevator and the elevator doors open up, wait for the people on the elevator to get off before you rush in and knock them in the face.
Common sense.
People just aren't using their brains like they used to.

Ok, that's my rant about people on elevators at a hospital.

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Feb 24, 2010

Weekly Rambles

- I can't believe my work week is almost over!!! One more day and I'm free for 3 days. Woohoo! I love working 4 10hr shifts. It would be better if I could work 3 12hr shifts, but I'll survive. You have no idea how long I've waited to get weekends off in a job

- My gallbladder is STILL acting up. I keep hoping it goes away as I start taking certain foods out of my diet.

- I've been helping Justin and Carrie pack their stuff. They are leaving me in the first or second week of April to move to Minnesota where Carrie is from. She tried living in Alaska and made it a year, but she misses her family too much.

- Spring is coming to Alaska!! It's starting to get lighter out earlier and that makes me super happy. I'm ready for the 23 hours of sun!!
It used to be really dark outside when I got to work, but now the sun is out and beaming when I get to work and it's just starting to set when I get off of work.

I took this when I got to work yesterday.

- I'm wanting to make changes in my life and I think this spring is going to be when it happens. I've been thinking long and hard and have come to some decisions. I can't wait to share them with you all!

- My niece is doing great now! She's gaining weight with the help of adding cereal to my sister's breast milk.
She stopped off last weekend and brought my niece and we spent a couple of hours together. She is soooo cute!

- Still looking for some work for my husband. There has to be something out there!!!!

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Feb 23, 2010

Why does thou hate me??

I just want to start off by saying thanks to all the advice and well wishes I received from yesterday's post.
I just needed to vent!

Now onto new things.

I've come to the conclusion that my body hates me.
I must have done something to it that it doesn't like one bit because it keeps coming up with problems.

First, my body rejects any kind of exercise or eYing healthy plan. It is stubborn and won't let go of any of the excess weight I've been carrying around.

Then, my body doesn't want me to EVER have a baby. Ever...
It plays mind tricks with me. I'm serious.
It tells my body to have a period, then it will skip a month to see what my reaction is. When it sees that I'm nervous and waiting the longest time to take a pregnancy test, it laughs in my face and turns on my period again.
Or it throws an extra one in. In the same month!

And now...
Now my body is holding some kind of grudge with my gallbladder. It's been killing me for the past couple of days.
I had a gallbladder attack last year. Luckily it was just sludgy and no gall stones.
It feels very similar to last time. I thunk it's because of my diet.
I've craved nothing but sweet, greasy, fatty foods for the past week or 2.
I'm currently detoxifying my body from all those nasty things.

Can't wait to see what my body has planned for retaliation.
Have a good night blogarinos!

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Feb 22, 2010

The need to vent

Just a warning...if you don't want to read about my whining, click away.

So as most of you know, I've been married for almost 15 months.
Hubs and I have been through a lot while dating and decided to start fresh after we got married.
I love him very much and he says he loves me, but the past 6 months he's acted like an asshole.
I know marriage is hard and I know you have to work really hard, but I'm beginning to feel like I'm at the end of my thread.

I supported my husband for as long as I can remember. He lost his job a couple of years before we were married and I paid all of the bills. His mom would help out when we really needed it and I'm forever thankful to her.
He did get a job when I became pregnant and helped pay the bills. We ended up moving into his mother's house later in my pregnancy because I was unable to work and his mom wanted to help out after I had the baby. She wanted us to live there so we could save money and while hubs went to school.
After I had my miscarriage, hubs quit his job and focused all on school. I began working and saving money so we could move out.

Hubs graduated in October 2009.
He still does not work.
It pisses me off!

He puts in an application and expects them to call him back if they really want him to work there.
He doesn't understand you have to sell yourself to get a job. You have to call them and ask about the status of your application. Show them you want to work there.

He tells me straight out he will not call them back because he thinks they won't hire him if he "bothers" them.
He just doesn't get it!!
He knows we need 2 incomes since my brother-in-law and his fiancé are moving in a couple of months. He knows we need the 2 incomes in order to save enough money to move into a cheaper apartment. He knows we need the 2 incomes because he wants to have a baby. He knows we need the 2 incomes in order to keep living.

I've tried talking to him. I've sat in front of him and cried because I was stressed out.
I'm working 10 hour shifts while he sits at home home and watches TV, chats on the computer, and sleeps all day.
I have to get off work and go to the store for dinner, then fight with him about who makes the dinner, take a shower and try to spend a few hours unwinding from the day.
There are days I don't get to bed until 1am.
He thinks it's my fault I don't go to bed early, but he doesn't understand I have to unwind from a 10 hour shift before I can even think about laying down.

I'm the one that does the laundry, I'm the one that cleans up after his ass, I'm the one that is struggling to pay our bills.

I've expressed to him I'm afraid I won't have enough money each month to make a rent payment on an apt once the brother-in-law leaves, plus truck payment and phone bill.
His answer: I can always move in with my mom.

Are you fucking kidding me????
If you've been a follower for awhile, you know I can't stand living at my mother-in-law's house.

He just doesn't get it. I need help in this marriage. We never spend time together anymore. He spends all of his time on the computer or goes to bed early when I'm home.
I'm off on the weekends and he doesn't spend any if it with me.
I don't know what's going on and I'm just really upset about it. I don't know what to do.
Divorce is a really easy thought, but I love him too much. I don't think I have the balls to even file for divorce.

Well that's my rant. I need to get some sleep before I go to work.
Goodnight blogarinos!

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Feb 21, 2010

Sunday Praise & Worship [Edition 22]

For it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose.
Philippians 2:13 (NIV)
It's been awhile and I have lots of things to talk about!
My sister, Genny, had her beautiful baby girl!
The whole family was able to go down to Southeast, Alaska to honor Uncle John as he was buried
Co-worker D is pregnant.
Co-worker T is pregnant.
Co-worker N is pregnant.
We had some things at work that needed to change and it finally happened.

 A lot of prayer for my husband's family. We lost Uncle John a few weeks ago, and now more distant family members are getting sick and dying. It's just a really hard time right now for the family.
My grampa [He was diagnosed with Prostate Cancer and is dealing with it now. He keeps going to the doctor to talk about the best option]
Mrs4444's mother is going in for back surgery on the 23rd. Please wish her well!
Co-worker D is pregnant [Wishing her a healthy pregnancy]
Co-worker T is pregnant [Wishing her a healthy pregnancy]
Co-worker N is pregnant [Wishing her a healthy pregnancy]
Teresa over at Too Many Heartbeats [Her mother was admitted into the hospital]
 K.Law over at K.Law:Inspired is pregnant. [Wishing a healthy pregnancy. Click on the link and hear that beautiful baby heartbeat!]
And to all the TTC'ers out there that are reading my blog and Twitter. It WILL happen!
Hope everyone had a great weekend and has a blessed and fantastic week ahead!
As always, if you need any prayers or announce any praise, feel free to contact me

Feb 20, 2010

I finally am done babysitting family!

*Does a little jig*

Everyone is officially back in town and I don't have to worry about watching any of the family members without help.
I'm so happy that Justin and Carrie went with me the other weekend when someone decided to steal Grandma's van. Don't know if I told you all about that one yet, but it's sure to come in a post....TRUST ME! I'm so glad this person that screwed up royally reads my blog secretly.
Anywho, I'm off to sit and do NOTHING. Ha!!!!

Happy Saturday everyone!

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Feb 19, 2010

Blog Awards...I know, I've been a slacker!

But in my defense...I hardly am able to use the computer during the week because my husband doesn't know how to share!
Ok, with that out of the way...

I've been tagged for a Beautiful Blogger Award over at Pixie Dusties. Thank you so much!!!!
If you haven't checked out her blog, DO.IT.NOW!
She's awesome!

The rules of this award are as follows:
Thank the person who nominated you and link to their blog.
Copy the award and paste it to your blog.
Tell us 7 interesting facts about you.
Nominate 7 bloggers that you love and link to their blog.

Well here are my 7 interesting facts:
1. English is NOT my first language. I learned English when I was a little older than a toddler. My first language is Swedish.
2. I absolutely hate shoe shopping. I think it's because I have such a huge foot, I can never find anything I like in my size.
3. I'm accident prone.
4. I'm addicted to Twitter as well as blogging.
5. I'm trying to get pregnant. (Not working so well)
6. I have minor OCD over things. It used to be really bad, but with some Cognitive Behavioral Therapy I had when I was younger, I was able to control it better.
7. I love crocheting. Most people think of that hobby for their grandmothers, but I really enjoy it. It's very therapeutic for me.

Pixie Dusties AND Redhead Dancing both tagged me for this award as well.Thank you, thank you, thank you!

The rules:
List 10 things that make you happy.
Pass this award on to 10 bloggers that make you happy!

My 10 things that make me happy:
1. Hubs - even though I've been complaining a lot about him, I'm still thankful for him and happy that we got married.
2. My little niece Julia - I got to see her again this past weekend and she's just so ADORABLE! I'm working on making a baby blanket for her. Can't wait to finish it.
3. Netflix - I truly love Netflix. I'm a huge movie watcher, but don't have the time that Blockbuster and other movie galleries want you to commit to when trying to watch and return a movie.
4. Diet Coke - it's my best friend. Always there when I need it.
5. Laughing my ass off - I love an awesome, long, and loud laugh with friends. I've been getting them a lot lately being at work.
6. The thoughts of becoming a mommy. I've been trying so hard, so I stay positive and those thoughts make me really happy.
7. Driving my truck with the windows rolled down on a hot sunny day blaring music.
8. Midnight car rides.
9. Loud music when I'm sad or grumpy.
10. All of my blogging friends!

I choose these people to have BOTH awards. Coz they are all awesome, kind, and I love reading what they have to say!

Feb 17, 2010

Feeling sick...and weird cycles

To my stomach that is.
All day Tuesday I was feeling horrible. I was telling my co-workers that I was feeling really bad all day.
When I got home from work, that's when it got really bad.
I was violently sick all night and into the early morning. I made my husband get me some Sprite and some Pepto and laid my head off the foot of the bed with our bedroom trashcan below in case I woke up and couldn't make it in time.

The next thing I remember is Carrie waking me up and asking if I was going to work.
I decided not to go in because I had just fallen asleep a few hours before.
After laying in bed all day, I started to feel a little better.
It wasn't until I got up to use the restroom when I noticed AF had made an early visit.

Now when I was younger, I used to get horrible cramps, vomit, and really bad headaches rightbefire starting my period, but they stopped after I started birth control.
I haven't been on birth control in 10 years, but haven't seen these kind of symptoms before.
Maybe it's a fluke I got so sick, I don't know, but my cycles are getting sporadic and it's freaking me out a little bit.

I keep getting these really short cycles.
It's really screwing up my calculations!

Ok, I think I'm gonna head to bed and get some sleep before work tomorrow.

Good night blogarinos!

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Feb 12, 2010

90 Day Challenge

It has always been a goal of mine to read the ENTIRE Bible....front to back.
I tried the program while attending church a few years ago, but my work schedule interfered with me being able to attend church, so I slacked and fell off the program.

Well this is why I love my iPhone!

I'm able to get the list of the program so I know what chapters I need to read, so when I don't have my Bible handy, I'm able to open my Bible app and finish where I left off!
You can even customize between many translations of the Bible (I personally use NIV).


This was taken off my phone. I'm now 1.1% completed. Woohoo!
I just started the program and I check off what I've read in my Bible and what I've read on the Bible app. 
I'm determined to stick with it this time!!
This year will be the year I knock off a few of my goals.
So hopefully by May 11th, I can tell everyone that I read the ENTIRE Bible.

Feb 10, 2010

Weekly randomness

Toothache is back. Just got my insurance cards and waiting for my federal income so I can get my wisdom teeth pulled. It needs to happen!!!

Lying cousin that stole Grandma's van for a day and a half applied at my workplace. He told them I referred him, so they hired him. He lied about his background check, so when it came back he had felonies dropped to misdemeanors, the boss let him go. Now I look like an ass. I made sure to call my boss and told him I DID NOT refer him.

Only 1 more day until my Friday!! I'm not doing anything. I'm so ticketed out for being on the go dealing with family for 3 weeks. Thank god the family is back in town!

Daylight is returning to Alaska! I'm so happy!

I'm starting to apartment shop. Brother-in-law and his girlfriend are moving in April and I can't afford the apartment on my own, so hubs and I will be looking for something cheaper. I despise moving and I'm going to miss them!

So I've been using that Woman's Calender I blogged about a week ago and I'm starting to understand a lot! I'm noticing why I felt a certain way around similar times. I'm really hoping it will help me understand when I ovulate and stuff.

Well I have to get up early so I'm heading to bed.
Good night blogarinos!

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Feb 9, 2010

RIP Captain Phil

I just read on my news app that Captain Phil Harris from The Deadliest Catch died tonight after having a stroke last month.

Captain Phil was my favorite one from the show. I was always cheering for the Cornelia Marie to catch the most crab!

My heart goes out to his sons who worked with him while he was gone a season and stuck by him.

I'll never forget when I drove to Homer, Alaska to camp on the Homer Spit and saw that he was at The Salty Dawg bar. I was able to sit down and have a drink with him.
He was a very down-to-earth guy.

You were a favorite in my house Captain Phil and we are going to miss you!!

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Feb 3, 2010

Going bananas!

So while hubs is away with the rest of the family dealing with Uncle John's funeral arrangements, they made sure someone was with Grandma and Poppy since Poppy is disabled.
They had asked a cousin to come in and help with Poppy's physical therapy appointments, help him shower, and make sure he gets fed, etc.
Well he hasn't done shit!!

He has class for 1 hour 2 days a week and that's it. He volunteered to stay at the house and help out while I took care of my mother-in-law's house and dealing with some odds and ends with Uncle John's things.

I have gotten a call EVERYDAY from Grandma because he's leaving at 7am and not coming home until 8pm.
He's using Grandma's vehicle since he doesn't have one and if you confront him about anything, he chases you out.
I've been called a selfish bitch, ungrateful, and lazy.
Mind you, I'm working 10 hour days while caring for a bunch of other things.

I got a phone call tonight around 9pm from Poppy asking me to come over because Grandma went off her rocker!
I get over there and she's freaking out about being alone tomorrow because something might happen. I tried explaining to her that if she needs something, she can call Justin and he would come over and help.
She said she wanted someone over there at 6am in case Poppy needs a glass of water because she doesn't want to help him....her exact words.

Are you serious????!!!???

I went off!
I explained to her she needed to quit being a spoiled brat and take care of her husband for cristsakes.

And then I went downstairs and went off on cousin because he's not supposed to be leaving all day. He's the one that volunteered after all.

I can't wait for the family to get back.
They can deal with all the craziness.
Until then, I'm keeping my phone turned off.
I haven't been able to relax in the 2 weeks my husband has been gone.
Friday night until Sunday afternoon is all mine!!!

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