Mar 31, 2010

I need help

Lately I have been so stressed out.
Work, marriage, family, and money issues.
I'm just fed up with everything.

I really believe that I'm going to have a heart attack soon.
I've tried talking a breather, taking a hot bath, etc.

Does anyone have any suggestions on how to calm down and destress?
Any scripture I could read to help?
I'm so very desperate...

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Mar 27, 2010

My legs are friggin' killing me!

Work is going to hell...seriously.
As most of you know, I work at a hospital. My official job title is Lift Team. In other words, I deal with every single patient in the hospital by taking them to tests needed while they are admitted, dealing with many patients in the ICU, and helping wherever I'm needed.
Each time a floor needs help, I get paged to their unit. It's not rocket science, and it's not a hard job to do if you're good moving people.


It's friggin' hard to do this with little sleep, long hours, and an extrememly shortage of staff.

We are losing people so fast for some reason.
Carrie is moving away so he last day was yesterday and Darcy just had a baby, so she'll be out until the middle o May. Other than that, everyone is quitting on us!

We now only have 4 people working on our Lift Team. There used to be 10 of us. We always had at least 4-5 people on at a time which made it a lot easier. We were able to divide up the pages and get them done in a timely manner. Now we only have 2-3 people all day. Now the work triples for us. We are constantly running around, not being able to take an uninterrupted lunch break, and we have to keep calling units that page us and telling them it's going to be a few minutes before we can get to them.
That usually makes the nurses extremely angry with we can help it!

I ended up working 50 hours this week, almost non-stop.
My legs are killing me!!!

We've been hiring people, but they work one day with us and decide to quit because it's an active job and it's "not what they thought it was going to be like".


That doesn't make any sense!!! I wish my boss would get his head out if his ass and hire people that are reliable and have a good work history.

Now I plan on sitting on my butt all day for the whole weekend.
I'm not even answering my phone!

Have a happy weekend everyone!

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Mar 26, 2010

Smooth talker

If you read my post yesterday, Poppy is doing much better.
I went into work and visited him when they served breakfast. He hasn't had much sleep and was just tired of the hospital. I don't blame him!

The doctor came in and was saying he wanted him to stay another day to do some tests or a biopsy of his lung, but Poppy was having none of it. Carrie and I got paged away to deal with some patients, so we said bye and told him we would be back later.

When we got back, he told me he was being discharged. I looked at him with a shocked look on my face and he said the doctor told him it was ok. I was pretty skeptical.

I found out later that he told the family he was being discharged because the doctor said he was good to go.
He smooth talked his way out of staying another night!
He promised his doctor that he was going to follow up with his normal oncologist, but he was talking out of his rear.

I'm just glad they sent him home on oxygen so he can breathe when he sleeps.
I might need to go over there this weekend and beat some sense in his head.

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Mar 25, 2010

Prayers for Poppy

I woke up yesterday morning and went to work like usual. I get to work and found out Poppy (my husband's grandfather) was admitted over night.
Apparently he had a hard time breathing the day before and the family became concerned. My mother-in-law called 911 and they took him to the ER.
His oxygen level was only 85%!
Usually when your oxygen level gets to 80%, you feel like you're drowning...Scary!
They put him on oxygen, but he could only reach 93%, so they admitted him.
Thank goodness I work at the hospital! Carrie and I were able to stay in his room while we were waiting for our beepers to blow up.
He seems to be doing ok with the breathing part, but they did a CAT scan and saw some blood clots. He tends to be prone to them because he is pretty much bedridden from a paralyzing accident he had many years ago. They also saw that he has pneumonia and think they found some spots on his lungs. He has battled lung cancer in the past, so they are worried it might have come back.
We are all REALLY praying that it's not back!

Will you please pray for Poppy?
We already lost our beloved Uncle John not too long ago and I don't think Gramma can handle this.

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Mar 23, 2010


I just got a phone call from my mom.
There is an opening up North on the pipeline and they are pulling my husband's application.

He goes to the office in the morning to talk to them and possibly get hired. They want someone by Monday.

Please send out prayers, good vibes, pixie dancing, etc....

He really needs this job!

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Mar 22, 2010

Infertile Prayer

Lord, give me the strength...

- to keep my cool when another period starts.

- to keep my chin up when a co-worker announces her pregnancy (in my case, 10 co-workers have announced pregnancies).

- to have a good relationship with my friend in spite of her ability to conceive easily and not be jealous of her.

- to make the right decision about treatment

And most importantly...

- to maintain a good relationship with my husband in spite of all of this.

I find myself thinking these things EVERY DAY. A lot of women don't understand the frustration women who cannot conceive easily have.
I trust that my prayers will be answered in its own time. Until then, I'll keep praying this same thing until that time comes.
I also like to keep referencing the Serenity Prayer.

Serenity Prayer
God, grant me the serenity to accept things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can change, and the wisdom to know the difference.

Have a happy Monday everyone!

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Mar 19, 2010

Six Word Saturday (with a little TMI)

My six words for the week:

I got called in for 4 hours.
At least it's not a 10 hour shift.

Oh and FYI...
Never take Mylanta for a sour stomach if you DO NOT have constipation.
Total mistake on my part.
It's all I had in the medicine cabinet.
Time to go to the store tomorrow and get my usual stuff!

Have a happy weekend!

- Posted from my iPhone


It's been a crazy week at work!!
The census at the hospital has been so slow, but it has climbing fast.
We've had almost 30 people admitted in just 3 days!
It sucks when everyone is quitting though.
We are so short handed at work. We had one lady quit on us, then a couple of weeks later a guy quit, and I think another girl is ready to quit too.
So stressful!
For the past 2 days I was by myself for the last bit of the shift and I got so slammed.
I'll be working today to make up some hours I missed on Monday. I'm usually off on Fridays.
Hoping everyone shows up for their shift today!

On another note, I'm getting sick.
It sucks!!!
I'm officially in full congestion mode.
Anyone have any good remedies so I can continue to breathe?

Have a happy Friday!!!

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Mar 17, 2010

Still adjusting

It's sad to say, but I am STILL adjusting to daylight savings time. I've had a routine down flat for 6 months now and it's all ruined by losing a hour!!

I'm so tired and out of sorts.
I have a 12 hour work day due to a stupid meeting after work.
Hopefully I'll be ready to go this weekend with some good blog posts.

It's about to get really real up in here...

Happy St. Patrick's Day!!!
Remember to wear something green...

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Mar 16, 2010

I wish...

...To learn to open my heart
...To love openly
...To find everlasting peace within myself
...To find a way to let the past go
...To release the anger I hold inside
...To become more involved in my faith
...To make ammends with people

And most of all.....

I wish....

...To be happy!

What do you wish for?
Mar 13, 2010

UPDATE: 90 Day Bible Reading Plan

This week for Six Word Saturday, I'm updating my progress on my plan for reading the Bible in 90 days.

This has been a goal of mine for a long time. I'm so happy to have the time, the patience, and the will to want to read the ENTIRE Bible.

Although I may not understand everything on pages, I'm reading each and every word on every page.
I take notes so I can go back and further read in depth and find the meaning.
I think the Bible is meant to be studied through the entire time.
There's so much meaning behind every sentence, it will take a lifetime.
I think that's why I enjoy reading it so much.

So here's my progress updates after I read today's reading.

Go on over to to see what everyone else is saying in six words.

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Mar 12, 2010

Weekly rambles...with lots of pics!

I was driving down the road when this butthole decided to ALMOST hit me!

He almost lost control because he wasn't paying attention to traffic that was merging into one lane because of this guy...

Luckily there was no children in the bus. The bus driver lost control on the road and ran into a snow pile head on, where it stopped him from running into the front building o the high school.

So the weather has been pretty crazy here in Alaska. It's been warm, which causes the snow to melt, then it snows a bunch, then warms up.

I love icicles! Just wish it would stop snowing for good because here in Alaska, we don't salt our roads. Instead, they put gravel down to add traction to the ice. Well once the snow and ice melt, you're left with this crap...

Huge boulders on the roads and in the parking lots. Makes me think I'm gonna pop my tires everytime!

This is all I can seem to eat lately. I love my everything bagels and fat free cream cheese.

Oh, and an update on Read the Bible in 90 Days reading plan as of this past Tuesday. It's hard, but I'm keeping up with it!

So how was your week?
Have a great weekend!

- Posted from my iPhone
Mar 10, 2010

'Till death do us part

Yesterday was a rough day at work.
I realize part of my job working at a hospital is dealing with patients that die.
Still doesn't make it any easier.

I got called to a room on a particular floor for a reposition.
The lady who was in the room was dying from cancer and could barely move on her own.
We needed to turn her to the other side and boost her in bed, so I, along with a couple of co-workers, did just that.
Every move hurt this woman so bad. She cringed with every turn, moaned with the boost, and pleaded for help with her eyes when she looked at me.
I grabbed her hand and told her we were almost done and she nodded.

After we moved her head back up and put a pillow under her head, her breathing got really short and shallow. We all looked at each other and began timing her breathes. In about 5 minutes, she only took 2 breaths.
One of the other nurses went and grabbed a stethescope and tried to find a heartbeat. She couldn't find one. That was when the lady took one last long raspy breath...and then silence. She was no longer there.
The nurse then ran out to call the doctor to the floor so he could call the time of death.

After walking out of the room and back to our office, I couldn't help but feel saddened by losing this woman. She had been in the hospital for a little over a month and I only seen her family once...and that was when she was admitted.
Usually when a family member is admitted into the hospital longer than a few days, they bring personal belongings to make the patient feel more at home.
This woman had nothing but a personal hairbrush sitting on her hospital nightstand. Nothing else.
This woman also had to die without family being around. She was basically dropped off and forgotten about. She laid in her bed with the TV on and did nothing.

I'm just glad that my co-workers and I were there to comfort her while she took her last breaths. I'm glad I got to make eye contact with her so she could look into someone's eyes that cared so she knew she was not alone. I'm glad my co-worker was there to stroke her head and tell her she was going to be ok.

I just wish she had her family there.

If I was in the hospital and was dying, I can only hope that my children, husband, and other family members would be by my side so I could take my journey to the afterlife in peace and knowing someone cared.

- Posted from my iPhone
Mar 9, 2010

There's no place like home

I wish I had a pair of ruby slippers that I could put on and click my heels and be home.
How awesome would that be?

Only one problem...
I don't know where home is going to be in a couple of months.

I have so much anxiety because I have no idea what we are going to do once our lease is up and Justin and Carrie move to Minnesota.
I'm hoping Aaron will get a job soon. He graduated in October and still hasn't found work!
I plan on saving my refund check for security deposit for a new place, but I feel so overwhelmed with looking for a new apartment.
I'd stay where we are if rent was cheaper. I just can't afford it by myself.
It's not fair!!

Not to mention I HATE moving.
I've been a nomad ever since I was born and my dream would be to be able to settle down somewhere longer than a year.
I want a place of my own.


Hopefully I can find something afforable when the time comes.
I REALLY don't want to move back in with my mother-in-law, but I see that in the near future if my husband doesn't get off of his ass and get a job.
I just want the stress to disappear!!!

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Mar 8, 2010

Nikke is ONLINE

I'm back after a mini blog break.
It was needed because I had to do a lot of To-Do lists and get things organized.
Now I just need to get my crap together and start on some things!

Now, I will be catching up on 2 days worth of reading!

- Posted from my iPhone
Mar 7, 2010

Nikke is OFFLINE

Just for the day folks!
All day today and probably most of Monday, I'm taking a break from Blogger so I can concentrate on some things in my life right now.

Keep reading those beautiful posts though!
I'll check my reader and catch up when I come back.
Can't wait to read wveryone's posts.

Have a blessed Sunday!

- Posted from my iPhone
Mar 5, 2010

$@&! didn't hit the fan TOO much

Well I had the meeting yesterday afternoon and we didn't get bitched at too much. Well I didn't get bitched at...
Here are some of the reasons our boss is pissed off:
1. A co-worker of mine wears way too much cologne. He practically bathes in it before coming into work, and then continues to bathe himself in it every hour. And the stuff doesn't even smell good! It's the cheap body spray. After having a million complaints and not listening to the supervisor, our boss called hi
out on it and told him to stop. Working in a hospital, you can't bathe yourself in cologne or perfume because it bothers patients. He wasn't happy at all about not being able to bathe in his cologne.

2. There's a lack od communication with everyone on the lift team. We got rid of all the trouble makers and starting fresh. Hopefully everyone will come together. One can hope!

3. The office is upset that Carrie is leaving. They want her to stay until Darcy gets back from her maternity leave, but that's not until May.

4. A co-worker (Cologne Man) likes to talk on his cell phone instead of going on pages. He doesn't even try to hide it. He will be in the office and talk LOUDLY. The rest of us will look at our phones when we have no pages or on our break, but he just stays on it all the time.

So it wasn't too bad. Hopefully we can get people to straighten up around here. Oh! They changed my schedule this week. Guess who has to work today??
So much for my 3 day weekend...

Have a happy weekend!!

- Posted from my iPhone
Mar 3, 2010

$@&% is about to hit the fan... work.
Things are changing, people are complaining, and hours are being cut.
And it's over stupid stuff from the little details we have overheard.

Having a big meeting tomorrow so I will know more details then.

I'm stressing over it bad...

- Posted from my iPhone
Mar 2, 2010

The smallest things amuse me

I love blogging.
I love being able to open my browser and share my world with family members afar, friends, and making new friends from blogging as well.

I've met some great friends through blogging.
I only had one problem...ever since my husband graduated school, and STILL doesn't have a job, I never get computer time.
I'm waiting until we move into our own place so I can hook up my computer so I could once again get in the groove of blogging.
I thought I was doomed and never be able to share anything for a long time.
That all changed when I got my lovely iPhone.

I started up my iPhone and clicked on the browser and signed into Blogger. Saw my dashboard, but there was a glitch.
I was unable to scroll down and view the posts people have posted.
I was so sad!!!!!

I tried opening Google Reader, and yet again, I couldn't scroll.
That was when I set out on a mission.
I opened the App Store and started searching.
That's when I found 2 lovely apps. The best part...they were free!!! That made me super happy.

So without further ado, I introduce...

I love BlogPress. I'm able to write a post, add pictures, label my posts, and even post things for future times!
I can even save drafts and work on them later.

I also found a Google Reader app where I can view all the blogs I love and able to comment on them as well. It's so much easier than trying to bookmark all of my favorite blogs.

I've seen other apps out there but never got around to trying them out because I've been happy with these two.

If you post from your iPhone, what do you use?
I'm always looking for new things =]

Have a happy Tuesday everyone!

- Posted from my iPhone
Mar 1, 2010

Goodbye February

Heeelllloooo March!!
This makes me happy because that means Spring is right around the corner.

I love...
- When the trees begin to bud
- The sun comes out early and stays out late
- The early morning sound of birds chirping
- Busting out the flip flops
- Driving down the road with the windows rolled down
- The smell of grass
- The smell of rain showers
- The return of the oversized shades
- Putting all of the winter gear away
- Planning what I'm going to plant in the garden

These are just a few things I love about Spring.

What are some of your favorite things you love about Spring?

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