May 22, 2013

Home sweet home

It used to be that I hated Ohio.
I left for a reason.
It wasn't until a few years ago that I realized I left because my mother made me leave.
She picked took us and drove from Ohio to Alaska to run from HER problems.
We were taught that Ohio is evil and nothing is there for us anymore.
I love the fact that I got to live in Alaska for almost 12 years, but I do miss Ohio.
I miss the family.
The things that I realized I missed, but didn't know until I came back.

For example:

  • The bullfrogs at night. 
  • My aunt's backyard on a hot summer day. 
  • Looking at the farms. 
  • Lightening bugs.
  • The smells while driving from town to town. 
  • Familiarity
I get really homesick after I leave Ohio. 
I miss that stuff. 
I crave it until next time. 

How can you beat this?

I've considered myself Alaskan for many, many years, but I'm just a simple country Ohioan. 
And I'm ok with that!
May 21, 2013

Ten on Tuesday

1. Still in Ohio.

2. Grampa is going a lot better. I'm really impressed.

3. I've been enjoying the river. It's beautiful there. It's in a little town called Utopia and it truly is utopia there.

4. This trip I also got to babysit my cousin's set of twins and they are freaking adorbs!
This is little Liam after a bottle.

5. I also got to hang with my cousin's older daughter, Makenna. She loves to tell stories.

6. Grampa still has an appointment tomorrow to get his belly drained. They are probably going to take off four liters.

7. Cosmo makes an awful country dog. He's too scared to pee when the bullfrogs come out and make noise.

8. I have been entertaining the idea of living in Ohio again. Maybe after school.

9. I'm not looking forward to the drive home. 12 hours in the car is not fun.

10. I wish I didn't have to work this weekend.

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May 12, 2013

Mother's Day

Mother's Day is one of the many days that I dread.
It's when I think about all the pain inside of me that I'm trying to hide.
I wish things were different almost five years ago.
This time five years ago I was so happy and planning a nursery.
So every time someone says Happy Mother's Day to me, I want to punch them in the effing throat.

But my pain aside, it's a time that I like to honor my own mother.
My mother has been through some shit.
Granted, she was selfish back in the day and we have our own problems, but I have the utmost respect for her because I don't even know half the stress she has dealt with being in an abusive relationship for so long, then getting the courage to leave the abusive relationship and struggle so many years being a single parent to four children and surviving off of one income...and not a very large income.

I'm happy that my mother has turned her life around, gotten healthier, has a job that she loves, and is able to support herself.
I'm even more happy that we have a great relationship.
I love that I can now call my mother and talk to her when I'm having a shitty day, I have a mother that supports the fact that I'm screwed up in the head and seeing a psychiatrist, I have a mother that comes and visits and spoils me, and that I have a mother that I know truly loves me.

So here's to you mom!
I know you read my blog secretly.

Happy Mother's Day.
Zombie-fied of course!

This was the last time I saw my mom. She came to Minneapolis to visit me and we went to Zombie Pub Crawl. How cool is she?!
May 10, 2013

Catch up!

Oh my dear blog.
I have neglected you so.
And for that, I'm sorry.

It's hard being a college student around finals.
Holy shit balls!!!

I have finally finished my 20+ page paper, had my conference and my writing professor and hit the ball out of the park. He absolutely loved my paper and said I did a great job with it. I hope grades come out soon. I'm nervous to see what my final grade is.

So I'm done with one class. Two more to go!

I have the final for Intercultural Communication and Biology on Tuesday and then I'll be done for 2 weeks.

What am I doing for my two week summer break you ask?
Going to Ohio of course!

I believe I've posted before that my grandfather isn't doing so well. He's in an assisted living home right now and he's in the end stages of liver failure and brain disease. He's begging for me to come see him during his lucid moments, so Hubster and I are packing up Wednesday after finals and hitting the road.
I'm excited to see my grandfather and go on a road trip. I live for road trips. I'm a pretty nomadic creature and love to be on the move.

So everyone send good vibes my way!
I need all the good vibes I can get for scoring the A's on my finals to keep a 4.0 GPA.

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